I made several versions of this design. At the end, I thought it would be best to go back and fix it. I didn’t record that part but I wanted explore a lighter color scheme. Marie’s expression and demeanor feels very innocent and childlike, she was 7 at the time. I know the design that’s posted in the shop is very light in color scheme. However, I really love this version of the design. I will be featuring it on google+ and deviantart.
I feel almost 100 percent confident that I found the perfect texture. I tested it several times on this design, using different colors. It’s very similar to the texture on The Ghost of Diamond Mountain. I feel that I can use the same technique for multiple designs and not have any trouble. When I went back to fix the design, I didn’t use this texture. Well… I used part of it. The color of this design is the most important thing. I hope you can see the texture and patterns. I spent most of my time on the background pattern. I blended a kaleidoscope pattern from the original photo. I also created a mirror pattern of the photo as well.
I was thinking about making more designs at a faster speed so I can submit them to magazines. However, I don’t feel too confident in my work right now. I really have no clue how to make this work. None. It sounds so simple. Go to art shows and visit galleries. However, I can be shy around people I don’t know. I don’t have enough cash to travel and no car. I feel so lost and I have to face another birthday. I used to celebrate my birthdays. Now I dread them…
There’s this one question that keeps popping up in my head. It pops up all the time. Why am I still here?
Does my love of color mean anything here? I can see so many destinations and experiments with color. It’s a great ride. I look at my music videos and see the journey and it reminds me how much I adore color. I want to make it to 100 videos. After 100, then hit 1000. After 1000, then 10K and so on and so on… I want to create a library filled with color experiments.
I watched a motivational video and it featured Jim Carey. It was inspirational. I think it truly spoke to me. Towards the end, he mentioned that you can ask the universe for what you want and it can happen. I want to make it to Paris. I want to make thousands of designs. I want to live with color. I want to be happy. One thing that hit me hard was when he said, “How will you serve the world? What do they need that your talent can provide?” I have no clue how my love for color can answer this question.
In the back of my mind, I feel like I’m just not meant to be in this reality. I can’t shake this feeling.
Oh well, since color is in my blood, I’m going to keep going until I go permanently mad or die.
I wanted to post this before my birthday tomorrow because I wanted to work on an abstract design from a sketch on my bday. I do hope you like the music video and the design.
- Time to create: 4+ Hours
- Tools: A pic of Marie Antoinette and Paintshop Pro
- Song in video: Re:Bitterfly by Etc.