Nine Days

I had another dream recently about my art. I wrote over 500 words, going into detail about the dream. About a half hour later, I thought not to post it here. The dream was just too strange. These dreams are starting to haunt me. I think I’m having them more frequently because I keep thinking about my work. Part of me keeps thinking it’s too late. Part of me keeps thinking, there’s no way I can make it to Paris. The biggest part of me feels lost in finding ways to make this dream work. I took a look at my youtube channel recently. I’ve spent hundreds of hours on my work. Making one design and music video can take a combination of 5 hours. Most of the time it’s a lot longer. There’s somewhere I want to go in my life. I’ve been trying to find a way to make this dream mean something. 31 in 9 days and still a failure. It hurts just to look in the mirror. I wish things were better than this. I wish I was better than this. I want to make it to Paris. The first dream of me being in Paris was when I was dead. I want to make it while I’m still here. There’s this nag in my head that says maybe it’s not meant to be. A constant tug of war. I love color. I really do. I have to let it steer me away from this disaster. Depend completely on this love.

I’m going to develop my travel series idea. It’s something I wanted to do for over a year now. Well, close to two years but I believe this idea will take my career in a positive direction. I just have to figure out how I can get the book sponsored in some way.

Here’s the plan.
I will be creating an art book featuring my travels in Chicago. The book will feature abstract interpretations of places I visit. I am going to post the original photos as well. The book will feature foods/drinks, nature, tourist sites, and anything that I feel would make an awesome design in some way. Museums, traffic, birds, clouds, rain, sunshine, all that good stuff.
How is this going to work?
Spending one week in Chicago. I was thinking about two weeks but I think that might too long and could get very expensive after the first week. I’m going to have a small itinerary of places to go before I get there. Must see restaurants, museums, historical landmarks, etc.
Take a minimum of 50 pictures to feature in the book. I would like the book to span around 72 pages. Each photo will have an abstract interpretation. For several photos, I will create a special abstract interpretation. I will trace the original photo and blend an unique 3d sketch, in paintshop.
It’s probably going to take me 2 to 3 months to make all the designs. I also want to make a special music video featuring all the designs. That would probably take a week or two to create. It won’t be a speed art video but a showcase of all the designs. I can use animations and lots of color. I think it would be fun.
Supplies needed to make this plan work: I would have to buy a printer, digital camera, tracing paper, a new sketch book, and there’s a mechanical pencil that I would really love to buy.
Where would I stay?: Somewhere nice and affordable. I love hotels.
How am I going to make this work?: That’s the question I’ve been trying to answer since I originally thought of the idea. I recently stumbled onto a website where someone talked about finding sponsors. I thought about a sponsor in the past but had no idea how to find one. So… at this point, I don’t know the exact details but I’m going to actively pursue trying to get enough funding to make this book work.

What I love about this series is that it’s going to take me out of my element. Experience more things about nature, life, and color. What I learned throughout my journey so far is that color reacts differently to the subject. I would love to travel to every state in the USA and go on a journey with color. Exploring different facets of color throughout the country. Going to Paris would make this whole dream complete and starting in Chicago would begin this dream. I know this is what I am meant to do. Thinking about it gives me shivers. I know I said this before but I really do love color. It gives me hope.

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