Thirty One

I’ve been doing this for a while now. Working with color is truly an unique experience for me. My birthday was on December 9th. The day itself felt ordinary, nothing too special. I got a card from my brother. The words in the card had me feel a mixture of emotions, most of it sadness and a little bit of irony.

In summary it said “We may not always agree on everything but one thing we can agree on is that you’re getting pretty old.”

I honestly don’t want to 31. Heck… I didn’t want to turn 30. I still don’t feel 31. I feel like I’m still in my 20’s trying to figure things out. The irony bit is that I always use to tease him about his age, he’s 5 years older than me. “Turning 30 is old. You have to do everything you can before then because it’s all going to go downhill after 30.” Now I’m 31 and I guess those feelings are now haunting me. I haven’t come close to doing what I wanted to do before 30.

I never thought I would be in the situation I’m in now at this point in my life. It made me a little sad yet I couldn’t help but smile while closing the card. Probably one of the most painful smiles. I agree… I’m definitely getting pretty old.

I listened to this motivational video on repeat, towards the end of making this design.

Sometimes I feel I failed in many ways. I look back and I always see myself working on the dream despite destroying myself on the way. I’ve watch a lot of motivational videos. I think this one truly spoke to me, in ways I don’t think I can describe.

I have to keep working. Keep building my library of color. It’s the most important thing in my life. At times, I was in silence making this design. I would have to remind myself that I’m live, still recording, and I have to keep working. I honestly feel privileged to be working with color. I know there are people that don’t like what I do and that’s ok. There’s a happiness. A moment where I feel nothing but bliss and awe. I felt it once more while making this design. I feel it every time I work with color.

Having the motivational video in the background reinforced how I have to keep going. Have to keep building and exploring. 87 speed art music videos and over one hundred designs. Probably a lot more but I lost a lot of work along the way.

I have to keep pushing myself until I can’t anymore. I will talk about this journey on my podcast. It’s been a while since I made a podcast episode.

I’m going to make it to Paris in this reality. I’ve been there a few times in my dreams and it has always been wonderful. I feel I can evolve and truly become one with color. That’s the goal. Keep learning and exploring…

I had an image in my mind of green and tan at the beginning of this design. I definitely wanted lots of circles in the background. I mirrored the pencil sketch I made several times. I really love to make 3d sketches. My hand is truly in the design. I wrote the number 31 in the original pencil sketch. I do recommend that you check out the music video. I hope you can see the 3 in the design. The 1 is also in the design but blended in the pattern. Midway, I found an awesome red blend. I tried to stick to my original vision but red pulled me in and I continued walking on that path.

I tested my finishing texture again on this design and it worked! Now I know it’s going to work on every blend. I used it for many color blends and it looks awesome. I do hope you like the design and the music video.

  • Time to create: 3+ Hours
  • Tools: Pencil and Paintshop Pro
  • Song in video: Flying Alaska V.2 by Everlone

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