In summary it said “We may not always agree on everything but one thing we can agree on is that you’re getting pretty old.”
I honestly didn’t want to 31. Heck… I didn’t want to turn 30. I still don’t feel 31. I feel like I’m still in my 20’s trying to figure things out. The irony bit is that I always use to tease him about his age, he’s 5 years older than me. “Turning 30 is old. You have to do everything you can before then because it’s all going to go downhill after 30.” Now I’m 31 and I guess those feelings are now haunting me. I haven’t come close to doing what I wanted to do before 30.
I never thought I would be in the situation I’m in now at this point in my life. It made me a little sad yet I couldn’t help but smile while closing the card. Probably one of the most painful smiles. I agree… I’m definitely getting pretty old.
I listened to this motivational video on repeat, towards the end of making this design.
Sometimes I feel I failed in many ways. I look back and I always see myself working on the dream despite destroying myself on the way. I’ve seen a lot of motivational videos. I think this one truly spoke to me, in ways I don’t think I can describe.
I have to keep working. Keep building my library of color. It’s the most important thing in my life. At times, I was in silence making this design. I would have to remind myself that I’m live, still recording, and I have to keep working. I honestly feel privileged to be working with color. I know there are people that don’t like what I do and that’s ok. There’s a happiness. A moment where I feel nothing but bliss and awe. I felt it once more while making this design. I feel it every time I work with color.
Having the motivational video in the background reinforced how I have to keep going. Have to keep building and exploring. 87 speed art music videos and over one hundred designs. Probably a lot more but I lost a lot of work along the way.
I’m going to build a weekly art book. I don’t have all the ideas put together but I’m going to make 5 new designs a week, minimum. I have to keep pushing myself until I can’t anymore. I will talk about this journey on my podcast. It’s been a while since I made my last one.
I’m going to make it to Paris in this reality. I’ve been there a few times in my dreams and it has always been wonderful. I feel I can evolve and truly become one with color. That’s the goal. Keep learning and exploring…
I had an image in my mind of green and tan in the beginning of this design. I definitely wanted lots of circles in the background. I mirrored the pencil sketch I made several times. I really love to make 3d sketches. My hand is truly in the design. I wrote the number 31 in the original pencil sketch. I do recommend that you check out the music video. I hope you can see the 3 in the design. The 1 is also in the design but blended in the pattern. Midway, I found an awesome red blend. I tried to stick to my original vision but red pulled me in and I continued walking on path.
I made five versions of this design that I really love. I think the cool part of making this art book is that I can feature every variation of my designs. I’m always a bit hesitant in posting variations in my shop.
I tested my finishing texture again on this design and it worked! Now I know it’s going to work on every blend. I used it for many color blends and it looks awesome. I do hope you like the design and the music video.
If you like to support my work, you can buy an art print of Thirty One here. You can also share this page with your friends and family. I am forever grateful to anyone that visits this website. ♥ Katherine…
- Time to create: 3+ Hours
- Tools: Pencil and Paintshop Pro
- Song in video: Flying Alaska V.2 by Everlone
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