Becoming A Soldier Against Darkness

Becoming A Soldier Against Darkness

I reached 10,000 karma points today on todoist. I’m officially a Master! It took a long time to get to this point. I started using Todoist over a year ago with my other website.  When I stopped using Todist I was only at Professional. I came back to this website and started using it again to prep for my upcoming trip to Hartford. I also wanted to see if I can perhaps reach Enlightened (the last karma level) on todoist. It feels awesome to reach this level. I think by the time I hit Enlightened, I’ll working on my website full time. Well… I already work on this website every day. It does feel like a full time job. However, I’m not earning full time income. Yet… Perhaps it will happen. I will continue this journey I am on despite any income generated from this website.

Initially, I planned to write this blog post a few days ago. Something very negative happened which could potentially set me back in my album progress. I was feeling very stressed and spent money towards the album on comfort food. I’ll be honest and say that I do have a serious problem with that. I’ve been very disciplined lately but I cracked the other day. As soon as I come back from vacation, I had to work 8 days straight at the job that I hate. It was a hard adjustment. I also ran into a small health problem. I was thinking that I experienced something magical and now I have to settle back into the nightmare. I realized that even if I work every day on this website, I could still be seen as a failure. I could make dozens of albums and not make a penny. I could be working at that horrible job for months, possibly years to come. I was feeling miserable. I know that’s the doubt and my dark side. After buying the food and working on my album, the feelings take a backseat.

It’s all possible. I’m losing subscribers and I could continue losing more. This could be one big disaster. I realize all of this. My work is probably seen as a joke. However, I guess the point is that I am resolved to keep moving forward. I see myself walking towards the Eiffel Tower in Paris, France every day. One day I’ll actually be there. I can look back on dark moments and see it will all be worth it. I know if I continue marching down this path with color, I will get there. I have to become a stronger person.

I think about my time in Hartford a lot. I am thankful it was the first place at outside of Philadelphia for my travel series. I want to create a beautiful album dedicated to my time there. I already started working on it. It’s taken me longer than I anticipated to put the video the together but I have an idea how the main album video is going to look. It’s going to be a short video but it will feature every design I will create for the album. I’m going to change my promotion tactics. Instead of just promoting on Youtube, I’m going to focus on Facebook for my speed art videos. I want to find a targeted audience before I launch my album. With my other website, I used paid advertising a lot more. I feel more comfortable using paid advertising. In the beginning, I thought it was a waste a money if I didn’t receive good results. Now, I look at it differently. Any result is a good result. If it’s profitable that’s great, if not then you know what not to do the next time. Any extra exposure is a beautiful thing. I can’t do this all on my own. Paid advertising is very helpful.

What I would love to do is create either an ebook or short class on how to create an art website. With my other website, I made tutorials. I would love to do that again. This time, I want to focus on my work here. With my other website, I just focused on ways to make money with other websites and apps. I want to focus on what I love. I learned a lot with that website and last 7 years learning internet marketing. I’m not an expert but hopefully I can help a little bit.

Today, I’m working the color side of the album. I wanted to write this blog post before I started working making my first design for the album. My first design will be Soldier’s Arch. The Arch is located in Bushnell Park. I hope I can make something nice. I’m looking for a song to listen to while making the design. I haven’t found one yet. Hopefully, I will within the next hour. So much to do in so little time. I have one more month until the album release. I have no clue if I’ll finish in enough time but I won’t stop working. It feels like a lot of pressure but I got this!

Just found the song I wanted to use for Soldier’s Arch. Yeah… I  can definitely spend a few hours getting lost with this song and the blends.

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Katherine