I’ve been planning this travel series journey since the beginning of January. I told myself that I was going to work harder to make my dreams come true. I don’t want to be the reason why I can’t live my dreams. I have to get more organized and make sacrifices. My heart is set on four albums this year.
I started to eat less to help me cut costs in my budget. It’s been rough at first. The hunger pains are difficult at times especially when walking for 5 hours straight. However, I’m able to put aside a few dollars by cutting my food expenses. The rest of my cash goes to debts and saving for the trip. For a while I use to spend my extra cash on food I shouldn’t be eating. Whenever I felt stressed out about work and life I would often get comfort food. There was one point a few months ago, I was eating fast food every day. I felt like it was getting out of control.
I know I have to get stronger mentally and physically. I learned a lot throughout the past year. Terrible things have happened. I felt meaningless towards the end of the year. I started to feel fed up with everything. I thought at the end of the year, either I was going to commit to living my dream or dying.
So here I am. I know after a while I won’t have a hard time with this strict diet. Maybe after a couple of albums, I won’t have to work at my job anymore. Maybe….. I do know that now is the time.
I had a moment a few days ago when I had a horrible day at work. I wasn’t feeling well and the stomach pains made me feel worse. I left and began to scream. I was tempted to spend the money I had to get some comfort food but I didn’t and remained focused on my path. Once I calmed down, I continued heading home. At the end of the day, it doesn’t matter what happens at work. All that matters is that I try to make this album happen. It’s a step in the right direction for me. There are limitless possibilities down this path.
My first stop is Hartford, CT. I’m going to provide more details in future posts. I’m spending most of this month planning the trip. I also have to get the podcast back up and fix a few things for this website. I bought a new design theme. It looks good but something feels missing.
There’s so much to do and so little time. I will find a way to make this dream my reality. I can do this….