Color Fury

Color Fury is featured as design 59 at my Youtube channel: BeatnikBlends

I was feeling distraught at the beginning of making this design. I wanted to make something that featured blue but was loud in color. Lots of colors, lots of emotions, rage, fury, all that stuff. Times have been very difficult. Honestly… the days are getting are harder to handle. 2014 has not been kind to me so far. It’s been close to 2 weeks without much access to the internet. It’s very hard for me to visit the library. The weather has been nuts. I also don’t have much money to go to the library, which is very far from where I live. Plus, I’ve been going on interviews without much success. I could go on but the main point is that life is hard. It gets harder by the day. I’m losing hope that things will change.

I know it’s kind of silly for me to think this but deep inside I keep believing that color will save me from this life. A life with serious debts, no money, and little food. The way I’m getting by is with some help from my boyfriend and family. Without the assistance, I would be on the streets right now. This is truly a low period in my life. I’ve been on my own for many years and recent times feel speechless for me. I gave up so much to try to be happy and since that time, I feel nothing but horror. I have to believe that color is my endgame. If not… I’ll go insane. I have so much love for what I do. It has to save me. It has to…

Well… that’s where the title comes from with this design. I’ve been working on this design for a couple of days. I took several breaks because I lost focus at some points and didn’t know where to go with the pattern. However… I think I’m getting better at my sketches. I try to create something that makes sense in my eyes. Patterns that don’t involve a 3d shape are the hardest for me.

In paintshop, the pattern becomes more challenging. There are two effects that can rotate the image: Mirror and rotating mirror. Midway through the design process, I ended up with a shape that looked like a monster. I don’t know how it happened. I wasn’t really paying attention because I was watching my boyfriend play a video game and talking to him at the same time as blending. I rarely do that… I am normally 100 percent focused. Whenever I stop to talk, I usually stop blending because I often lose focus on the direction I’m on with the blends. I tried to replicate the new shape from my drawing but I couldn’t so I told my boyfriend I made a monster. Look at the monster…

Maybe it’s all the sadness, pain, and rage put together being expressed through color. Or maybe it’s a cool blend that I’m not able to recreate. I love creating new shapes and figures through blending color. There are a few effects that can make that possible and I love it. I made the monster fairly early in the design process. I didn’t want to stop blending so I ended up going in another direction with my drawing that I love equally. (Feburary 2019 Update:  I posted the monster version of this design in this post.)

I really love the colors in this design. It’s exactly what I wanted my design to look like in the beginning. Lots of crazy, loud colors, with blue being the center.

Thanks so much for visiting Beatnik83. ~ Katherine

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