It’s been a very long time, almost a year. The last few years have not been kind. However, I didn’t completely abandon my dream here. In fact, as of a few days ago, I finished making every design and the music video for my Paris travel series art album. Instead of 15 designs, I made 11 and 9 are going to be featured in the video album.
The video album is going to be different than any other video I made so far for the channel. I used a synthwave theme for the songs and I wanted to highlight that with Paris art designs as the backdrop. I also think when it comes to target audience with advertising for the album, synthwave lovers would be a great primary target. I listen to a lot of synthwave on Youtube so I think this video would be great for people who like the genre. I was going to make a separate Youtube channel to feature this style of video since it’s different than any video I made but I ran into issues with links not showing up and just decided to keep everything on my main channel. I guess it’s all for the best since all of my videos are on there but the channel is a bit of a mess. 🤷♀️
It feels so good to be done. It took almost two years since I visited Paris on my birthday in 2021. So much has happened and if this is my last album then I’m ok ending this journey with this album. I think all the designs look absolutely beautiful and the video album is incredible. I’m currently waiting for the video to upload on Youtube.
In the last post, I mentioned that someone planned to hack into website and cause havoc everything associated with the site online. A part of me wanted to believe it was just a scam, an empty threat, but… this asshole made good on it and I ran into some issues. My twitter account was hacked into and since I don’t visit or update my social media often, I didn’t notice it until months after and my account was suspended. It took some time to sort through that issue but I just ended up deleting the account after I proved that it wasn’t me spamming. This site has been hacked into several times and this happens. I’m nobody and this has been a headache. I can only imagine what other people who actually have a presence online with thousands or millions of subscribers have to deal with when it comes to security.
Since this may be my last album, I’m probably not going to be updating this website after I post all my Paris content. I would like to write something for every design I made for the album.
It’s been a long journey and I’ve been seriously depressed throughout most of it. I’m happy I can say that I finished something that was a dream come true and I thought it was impossible to achieve years ago. This Paris album is a love letter to my past self. There were many times that I was going to give up on this album. I completely lost all sense of self when I came back from Paris. The last year and a half have been terrible. It’s strange… It’s not the destination itself that was perfect. The trip back and forth to Paris was far from perfect but… it was the few moments I had where I was simply inside of dream. A perfect moment in time. Everything felt aligned. I knew this was it for me. Close to 20 years in trying to visit Paris and standing in front of the Eiffel Tower for the first time on my birthday was perfect. I was just speechless and in awe of the moment.
There was another moment right before coming back where I felt this dread that began to fester which led to completely losing my mind since coming back. I don’t know if I can explain it well. It was like I felt my purpose, what I was suppose to do with the rest of my life and coming back home was the complete opposite. I wanted to continue my travels in France. I wanted to continue the journey. Endless travels while making abstract interpretations of nature with my art. That takes money… a lot of money. And also a lot of time. I can only afford one maybe two trips per year. There’s just so many places to explore. At this rate, realistically, I wouldn’t come close to finishing my travel series in this lifetime. And you know what… It’s ok. It’s ok because Paris was the ultimate destination. The dream… I made that happen.
I hope you find beauty or at least an expression of love I have for color and Paris with my upcoming album. I put everything into it. It’s over 11 years of experience working with this style of art and trying to make my dream come true. Even though I haven’t been active here, my dream has always been my core every day.
I wish I continue the journey and maybe I will. If I do… I will update this website with more details. However, before the video album is live, I do plan to talk about each design featured the album but I’m dating each post on the actual date that I finished the design. I will have everything put together on the main album post. My ultimate plan is to have the album live on the 18th.
Forgot to mention that I made a RedBubble shop for this travel series. I am not going to add previous work in the shop. I thought about it but I would have to make some changes to my past art albums and that would take more time that I am willing to invest into the shop, so if I decide to make more albums, Paris will be my starting point. My art designs look so much better compared to what I made in the past now that I’m working with Photoshop and Paintshop Pro together. This really is a new beginning for my work and it took way too long to get here. But… it’s great to finally feel comfortable with my art style and create art that looks good to me. The textures look amazing and I always wanted my art to look like this but there was always a missing piece that I finally solved.
The photos featured in this post were all taken at the Rodin Museum on 12/8/21. The first one is The Thinker which I found outside in the garden. The second sculpture I don’t know the name but I remember just loving the expression and body language of the man in the sculpture that I had to take a photo of it. I have so many photos from the trip. I didn’t take photos of many labels that were posted, another mistake on my end. The last sculpture is called Eternal Springtime. The Rodin Museum is truly wonderful. It made me love sculptures on another level.