Sleeping Faun (Paris Travel Series Art Album)

Sleeping Faun (Paris Travel Series Art Album)

The sculpture featured in this design is located at the Louvre Museum in Paris, France. Location: 99 rue de Rivoli, 75001

Sleeping Faun is a very unique design for two reasons. I never worked with a human body in the past. I’ve only done portraits similar to Pierre but never the full body. I also never worked with a naked body. When I was in the Louvre and saw this sculpture for the first time, I was genuinely shocked. It’s so erotic, kind of seductive, bold, and just exudes sex and confidence to me. It’s a bit weird to be saying that here on this blog. To me it looks like the man is thinking about a sexual past encounter while posing for the artist. You know… if you’re sitting for a while and supposed to look sinful and in lust, I guess the best way to portray those emotions is to have your mind revel back in a memory that’s similar. Or maybe he’s just a great model. I think I talked too much about this already, lol. Looking back at the history, I guess I’m completely wrong in my original analysis. The artist Edme Bouchardon made a copy of the original sculpture called Barberini Faun during his training at the French Academy of Rome to build his skills in making sculptures. I think this one looks better because the leopard is more visible in the sculpture. I think it’s a leopard. I love it! I could make an album from inspiration at the Louvre alone. There are so many works of art. I know I’ve probably seen about 10 percent of it. I would totally love to go back and have the Louvre be my first stop of the day. However… going back is pure fantasy.

I had a deadline to make the art design in one day. Unfortunately, one day turned into almost three days because I was lost in the color blends. After a while, I thought to start over again because I didn’t think I would be able to find that precious sweet spot. I didn’t want to just settle for what I had because this album is everything. I am thankful that I decided to start over because when I started working with rotating mirror, everything came together. Since the original photo was taken at the wrong resolution, I made a collage as the base. I usually call the base a canvas because I work with the base to build the design. With Pierre, I did something similar but this time I cut more pieces of the original photo into the final base. Before I started over, I was thinking I wanted to highlight the face and body more so anyone can tell there’s a person in the design. Not just an abstract version of a human body, if that make sense.

I was torn on the main design I wanted to feature on this website. I made two versions that I love equally. The brown version that you see in the music video at the beginning is the closest to perfection. It has similar colors to the atmosphere in the Louvre. Lots of white and brown were scattered about the museum and I think I love the brown version more. Je ne sais pas. I’m on the fence. So… I made a thumbnail of the blue version for my YouTube channel and here.

The music video has been just a nightmare from the start. I don’t think the computer I’m working with can handle Vegas 19. There’s been constant crashes when rendering the video. Whenever the video did render, I would find mistakes I made that I thought I fixed. The program works poorly and it takes forever to edit a video. I honestly thought I caught every mistake but since there could be skips when previewing the video, it’s so easy to miss something. I replay clips dozens of times to help pre-render the section. I was going crazy making this video. I hate that it’s took me almost three days to make this video. I made one big yet small mistake Saturday night. I thought I fixed it and since there’s constant crashes it took hours for the computer to finish rendering the video. At this rate, I’m not going to finish the album by the deadline and I’m very upset. I also had to reduce the quality of the video to help with the file size. This is just a mess. After all the videos I made throughout the past nine years, this album has been one stressful situation to the next. Making stupid mistakes and having a computer that literally can’t handle these new programs is not helping! I added additional memory to my computer and it’s shocking to me that this happening. I don’t understand. Sad to say that the scripts are still not working so it really has me on edge for the video album and kindle books. I’m frustrated and I didn’t think this was going to happen.

I would hate for this last album to be the worse. I’m doing everything I can to make this beautiful. I’m just so sad and disappointed that every design and video has been a pure struggle. I’m really behind schedule and I hope upcoming designs will be easier to make. I spent so much time on this design and music video and in the end it means nothing in this reality. I know what I do here doesn’t matter. It’s horrible and probably looks extremely outdated. A part of me wants to stop. A huge part… I wish I was a better artist and person. Someone who was confident and better skilled. I’m happy that this is my last album. It takes too much energy and time and it’s all meaningless. I’m losing my mind. I know it and I’m not in denial anymore.

I really don’t want to say this but I will. Going to Paris made me realize where life went wrong in a big way and made me see a glimpse of a life I will never have in this reality. The damage has been done. The madness would have continued if I didn’t go to Paris but since I made that dream come true it validated everything. The fact that this album has been a nightmare to make only solidifies every thought and feeling that this is the end of my journey with color.

There was a moment where I was crying while walking outside of the Arc de Triomphe. I didn’t want to admit to myself that I was having somewhat of a bad day. The negative moments were starting to get to me. I should be happy because I was in Paris. I should be happy…. Even now, I shouldn’t be sad that nothing is working out. I should be happy that I even have a chance to make something from a trip to Paris. This is a life dream. It’s crazy… I just can’t shake the emptiness. Going to Paris made me feel empty. Even now… Even despite anything negative that happened, I would love to say that I’m on the journey again. Discovering more of Paris and France. I know in my heart that’s just not going to happen. I also know that I’m not good enough to make this a full time career. Not only that… I’m really tired. I don’t want to continue trying to make this work anymore. I don’t have it in me. I’ve been heartbroken for a long time and sadly going to Paris didn’t help heal my broken heart. I’m going to finish this album because it would be nonsensical to stop now but whatever happens, this is definitely my last album.

Onward and hopefully upward…

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