A Lone Soldier Fighting Against Darkness ?

Well, it’s been a while. I could go into a long story about what’s been happening but I won’t. I think about this website all the time. This website is my dream life. I would love to create abstract art music albums all around the world. Do tons of story videos, just have a beautiful visual feast with my imagination. There’s just so much I want to do. I love color so much. It’s my true love.

However, this reality is… difficult. Realistically, I need thousands of dollars to make this dream come into reality. If you read my posts in the past, I always struggled to make a living with my artwork. The problem is relying on my love of color to earn a living. I can’t control if anyone is going to like my work. What I learned over the past couple years is that I have to stop looking for ways to earn income with this website. I have to find a way to earn the money I need to live my dreams but not with this site. All the jobs I ever had never gave me the means to work on this website full time or even part time. I barely made enough money to pay bills. I’ve been dead broke. There have been days I didn’t have enough money for food. It’s been a real struggle. There are many people living their dreams. Making lots of money and not worrying about money. I want to be one of those people. So… I have to find a way to make this dream come to a true reality. I don’t want to worry about money with this website. It should have never be about the money but about color.

I never started this idea for others. I never wanted approval from others about my work. It is nice for someone to like it. I can’t say it doesn’t hurt a little bit when someone says it’s not really art or it’s chaotic, or a mess, or something else negative. But… I move forward and continue my journey because I love it. I discovered so much already. My happiest times was being in Hartford and Cape May. I will never forget my time in Hartford. It was just a beautiful moment in time. Cape May was gorgeous. Every single day, I am fighting for more moments like this.

It’s not about the money. It’s about living a dream. So… in saying that I’m taking the membership site down for this website. The reasons why I’m doing this is because I can’t stop anyone from stealing my work. It’s happened in the past. Also, I want my work be accessible to anyone who wants to see it. Plus, I don’t want to spend time constantly updating and managing a membership site. I want to focus on color. Another reason, well… it’s a personal one.

Today, I posted the full versions of Lighthouse, Emlen, and Abstract Carriage. In this post, you can see A Pink Smile. It’s a short story video I made before Roller Coaster. I love it. I like it a lot more than Roller Coaster. I would definitely like to make more videos like this and perhaps add a short story.

I’m working on another website that I think will lead me in the right direction to start my next travel series. I don’t know… I’m hopeful. Suddenly, I feel very optimistic about this. I’m learning something new and it’s beneficial to my current studies in internet marketing. I have a goal I want to reach by September.

This sounds like another hiatus. It’s not… It’s me trying to get the funding I need to elevate the work I’m doig here. I’m going for epic as long as I’m still here. Every day, I feel like I’m getting closer to either oblivion or success. I try to remind myself that I have to push. I have push to keep this dream alive. No one is fighting for it except for me. I want to prove to myself that I can do this. I will do this.

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